Rage

Rage is what makes me hate you 

Disbelief is what you cultivated me on...

... now I am motherless yet we are both alive. 

You get no rise out of me...

I wrote a book: 

https://www.amazon.com/Elephant-Stew-Sticks-Stones-Broken-ebook/dp/B07L62MW1K



The second book is in the works see below: 

Elephant Stew: Emancipation, Evolution, Education... Volume 2 A real conversation starter 

Preface: How to use this tool

Mothers talk to your daughters (4) to the readers 

1. “I did not know grandma had a boyfriend” (4)
2. “Excuse me they lost me can I call my aunt” (5)
3. “big horse” (2)
4. “Bible study and my bare feet” (8)

*Discussion Topics:

-Religion

-Power 

-Abuse 

-Humiliation

-Tradition 

5. “Being tied a chair” (8)

Other title: I don’t ear Cornish hens” 

6. “Roxanne (5th grade) Brandy (7th grade) Jennifer (10th grade) 
7. “Number 4 paper bag, Psychosis, Therapy” (Poems: 15) 
8. “Open Letter to Black Mothers: Ethnography, Education, Environment” (8) 
9. “...I told the therapist, for me being raped allowed me to explore her” (8)

• Discussion Topics: 

-Religion 

-Power

-Abuse

-Humiliation

-Shame

-Worth

-Values

10. “Open Letter to Black Women”:             1.Self Care                                        2.Respect of Time                                    3.Setting a Standard               4.Artiuclation/Communication           5.LOVE
11. If I could do a Ted Talk: Children and moving forward. (My audience) 

• Discussion topic: The power of childhood 

How to........(Parents).        When to...(children)

-Religion 

-Power/sex

-Abuse

-Humiliation

-Shame

-Worth

-Values

-finances

-asking questions

-bullying 

Forgiveness verse Karma:

Forgiveness verse Karma:

Every year I retreat, in the past its been  about removal of people and their isms from me not really about the enteral work of self reflection-then something happened. 

I started really walking on the path chosen by me from Obatala. Its difficult to find the words to put into place exactly what he does for me. 

And as much asI want to find the right words. I personally do not feel anyone is worthy of Obatala- he gives grace daily. He has taught me how to keep my spiritual cloth clean and how to remain humble.

The past is riddled with trauma and grief two things that have been my guide lines or growth on my path. Along the way I have been trying to explain what Baba is for me or how he is....what he has taught me is: 

How to follow my instincts along the way

How to keep balance-not end up bitter-

Thats what Obatala is for me. 

The universe says you must forgive and have the general energy of forgiveness for those who trespasses against you. The universe never said for your to forget the things the person has done spirit simply says: FORGIVE THEM.

And let's be clear there is a difference between forgiving someone and secretly hoping 'karma' comes for them. Both of which do not control my out comes and interactions with other humans. 

I start my blog conversations from a place in my life that I must look at and examine. Today in this moment of forgiveness I never wanted my own mother to fall victim to time and distance. However she has and as of me writing this I do not know where she is- and the part that keeps me up

at night is that I no longer can change her circumstances. When I was born we saved her life, my (dead) twin sister and I. 

Now I do not have the ability to stop my life to help with hers. Nor do I have energy to pray for a different out come. As I feel asleep last night I came to an understanding that 

"Everything you touch you change" 

I have been touched. Touched in a way that I can feel the changes- I want to hide the truth. The truth being: that touch and agenda less communication is starting to change me, That I too need human interaction, that I crave it: touch. 

I have been trying to love without touch, intimacy, and care: things I thought I had figured out. Emotions I was never taught how to feel or express. Those emotions where beat out of me. I mimicked emotions for a long while. Because the idea of looking in my soul for the root of what I was feeling at the time was insurmountable and not a thing I was willing to do. 

It was compartmentalized. 

The more I forgive myself the more I push my own envelopes and just when I can no longer breathe the universe responds in a way to remind me "this too shall pass". 

I accept my karma for every hurt I have caused and for every heart I have pushed away because I was too afraid to allow my heart to be repaired. Never in life have I felt this normal. I have all but stopped thinking where intimacy is concerned. I no longer have an investment in the outcome. I have a formula for how I am supposed to move now. 

"Its anew dawn, its a new life for me, and Im feeling GOOD"

I take my Karma any day but I would rather have the opportunity to truly forgive, and that forgiveness happens when you have zero recall of why you should be cautious with the person to begin with....  

I challenge you to forget that Karma and forgiveness are intrinsically linked and relax into the idea of letting go and letting spirit-

Reflections Eternal

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Facebook post with a point

I am teaching this year, at the beginning of the 2016-2017 school year, here are my educator stats:

Years taught: 23

Amount of Schools: 40+

Grades taught: 0-4, K-8, HS, Adults(Facilitation), Lecturer (collegiate), Educators

Longest class ever taught: Youth Development Content Strand OST 

Subject taught:(Self developed curriculum trade marked) 

-"Literacy and the African American Child"

-"Why lesson planning in OST compass"

-"SPD: Application and Adaptation" (Based on Dina Wright Joseph's model) 

-"Black Education in America"

-"Literacy Expansion: K-8"

-"Educational Administration record keeping"

-"Early childhood education (0-4)"

-"STEM: Curriculum development combating modernity"

-"Common Core Education"

-Dance- Modern, Jazz, Body Mechanics, Africa Movement K-9

Students taught: over 30K and counting

Principals: 50+ (working with) 15 Taught presented too

States taught in:

-California

-New York 

-Africa(Country) 

If you're a teacher, copy/paste as your status; change your answers! Many of my friends are teachers, so let's see your stats!

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