Pillar to Post: Day 8
Feeling like a dreg of society is not a great feeling when you KNOW you have over extended yourself to so many.
When you have gone out of you way to help your fellow man, woman and child.
Feeling dismissed and removed from EVERYONE and EVERYTHING.
Last night I cried me to sleep....think not one person has reached out to see about my well being. Not one human beside (the ones connected to me by God) have sent a text, email or call to ask if I am rested inside. God didn't make us this way.
Even saw a picture of a supposed "friend" here in NYC. She didn't even say hey fooliette Im in your town. Maybe she thought I would ruin her parade. i am big energy. Crying is starting to hurt my face, so it twitches. At least homeless people on the street get some type of recognition of life. I often say I was born in the wrong era. Maybe "folks", who are so down for the cause would show up at a funeral with my name on it, but them again not to many people KNOW MY NAME.
Some do not agree with the choice I made to not fight a homophobic landlord, and some don't agree with my choice to be in NY anymore. Here is the problem with all of that its my choice. Its my decision. Its MY UNDERSTANDING OF THE ODU THAT FELL AND THE ODU I WALK WITH.
I have to buy a new pillow cause this one is all wet. Im transparently honest and as equally clear, and have the valor of Ochossi's arrow, folks try to make me think one thing and do another but I trust Baba and he trust my instincts.
Its a new dawn and new day and Im feeling good.....
Either respect my choice or cease all communication. I would rather you say to me leave me alone child than talk behind my back. I have protector spirits and warriors they will reck havoc. I have the graces of the trees and the Iyamins... and Im NOT BULLIED OR AFRIAD INTO NOT USING THEM.
I may seem to you as unintelligent but please no I am no where near there on any level, and my niceness has been taken for weakness far to long.
YOU HAVE ALL BEEN WARNED: PLEASE I BEG YOU RUN AND GO TELL THAT!
In love and light
Ocha Ala Inu-
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