Writing Moment 101:
Important Questions To Ask Yourself
When I started writing this blog it was with the hope that I could actually get the words and stories living in my head out on to paper. But like most humans I have shit that holds me back from my full potential. My own fears and the projected fears of others make me at times susceptible to the bullshit of others. Then there are mitigating circumstances like: Being a woman. Having ambition. Being goal oriented. Those things do not seem to sit well with people who want to hold you back.
So here, is my writing assignment that was sent to me from a fellow writer friend of mine. I hope you get some cathartic joy out of it. I certainly did. I also can see in myself where I am very closed about certain things. I am a book that has been thrown on the shelf and forgotten. And I am doing (thework.com) THE WORK to get back to me.
This was a first step. I dare you to step with me.......
Questions:
1. Who are you?
A woman on a journey
2.What are you passionate about?
Education and Learning
3.What are the achievements you are most proud of?
The fact that against all odds I graduated from school, with out the financial and emotional support of the people that have my blood in their veins, and I have been to Africa more than once.
4.What are you most grateful for in life?
Being a Priest of Obatala, and knowing that Baba trust me to live my life. I am grateful for his graces and lesson along the way. I am grateful for my "Iwapele" (good character)
5.What are the most important things to you in life?
Health, Faith and Prayer, because you will always be tested.
6. How would you describe yourself?
I would say that I am often misunderstood, judged, placed in a box, over looked and under appreciated.
7.What are your values?
That you do unto to others as you would have them do unto you. Treat people how you want to be treated, do not be indifferent to people. Respect those around you. Create boundaries and do not break them.
8. What do you represent?
The shall that protects the mouth of the Ocha.
9.What do you want to embody?
Humility.
10. Do you love yourself?
I am not sure about that. In all honesty.
11.… Why or Why not?
Life is hard these days and I have been going through it. Its made me strong but it as also made me not like people and I have started to not want to be here on this planet. So I am working on loving me from the inside out.
12. How can you love yourself more today?
Keeping to myself, taking the time to learn other people. Not giving away all I have saving something for me.
13.What is your ideal self?
I do not know the answer this question because I have never known my worth. I ideally would like to be a professor and just have my shit together and not have to financially depend on anyone, cause outside of self I have ALWAYS found "other" to be disappointed, and let down.
14. What does it mean to be your highest self?
To adhere to the four agreements and be impeccable with my words.
15. Look at your life now.......are you living the life of your dreams?
No, I not living my complete dream.
16. If you have one year left to live, what would you do?
Travel and make ebo (offering)
17. If you have one month left to live, what would you do?
be of service.
18. If you have one week left to live, what would you do?
Put my affairs in order.
19. If you have one day left to live, what would you do?
Meditate, make peace with all those who I have harmed (something I try to do now, when I have inadvertently harmed someone)
20. If you have an hour left to live, what would you do?
Make peace with myself.
21. If you have one minute left to live, what would you do?
Embrace Iku (death in the Yoruba pantheon)
22. What would you do today if there is no more tomorrow?
I would visit all of the places Orisha lives in the city I am in, then meditate on a mountain somewhere.
23. What are the biggest things you’ve learned in life to date?
Not everything is the way it seems, don't judge a book by its cover, trust my gut. The people who smile in your face are usually the ones creating the most chaos.
24. What advice would you give to yourself 3 years ago?
Don't stay stuck anywhere, be the CHANGE I want to see in the world.
25. If you are yourself 1 year from the future, how would you advise the you now?
Relax this too shall pass and the nay sayers will be put in their lane, as long as you follow your Ita to the VERY letter you will be VICTORIOUS, and all who have harmed you with their tongue will answer to Olofi. And forgive the people who have trespassed against me
26. Is there something you’re still holding on to?
Yes, there are a few things and people I am still holding onto.
27. Is it time to let it go?
It has been time to let go.
28. What are you busy with today?
re-doing my blog and writing this journal entry.
29. Will this matter 1 year from now?
Yes , for growth reasons.
30. 3 years?
No
31. 5years?
Yes when I will be training my staff, on how to develop the mind of the child.
32. What are your important and most urgent tasks?
Finding housing, because I want to own my home and Im tired of paying rent and tired of ppl constantly placing their negative on me
33. What opportunities are you looking for?
In general a better way of life. Better people in my life that actually care about me and who I am versus what they want to here, I listen to hear not to reply.
34.How can you create these opportunities?
keep looking for work and enroll in school.
35. What are your biggest goals and dreams?
To open a school and have twins, and be okay enough to create family with another human who I can be open to receiving. having another human who want to create that with me.
36. What’s stopping you from pursuing them?
FEAR. Liars, people who are not about the "honest clean living", cloak and dagger antics. Socialization.
37. Why?
I do not trust other humans as far as I can throw them.
38. How can you overcome them?
I can over come them by being clear in my goals and endeavors.
39. If you are to do something for free for the rest of your life, what would you want to do?
Help those who have been abused, learn to sit in silence, and to silence the voices inside, and read stories to children at the public library, that was the most fun time for me.
40. What would you do if you cannot fail; if there are no limitations in money, resources, time or networks?
Get a Phd in religious anthropology focusing on ethnography... of displaced africans. I would learn everything I could so I could share it with the people.
41. What do you want to achieve 1 year from now?
Having a better job
41. … 3 years?
Being in my position for at least 2 yrs
42. … 5 years?
Owning my own school
43. … 10 years?
having at least three other facilities and having generated income that reflects the passion and dedication of my staff. A staff of class- and decorum. A staff of people who are dedicated to the process as well as the children.
44. How important are these goals to you?
They are a part of my dash.
45.What if these goals are doubled?
I WOULD BE SO EXCITED
46. Tripled?
Anything is possible
47. Magnified by 10?
I would be changing the world.
49.How would you feel?
Accomplished. And as of my mission from Olofi was complete.
50. Would you prefer to achieve these or your previous goals?
my previous goals because everything needs to slow and grow.
51. Who are the people who have achieved similar goals?
no one that I personally know …
52. What can you learn from them?
Gotta meet them first.
53. Are you putting any parts of your life on hold?
Yes …Love
54. Why?
Because every relationship I have been in the person has misused my trust, or cheated, lied to me or taken advantage in some way. Some of this is my own ignorance and naiveté around relationship the other part is me not trusting people. This is in business as well as personal/romantic
55. What’s the top priority in your life right now?
being mentally and financially stable.
56.What are you doing about it?
Seeking better employment. And learning not to react so quickly.
57. If you were to die tomorrow, what would be your biggest regret?
Not having children.
58. What can you do now to make sure that doesn’t happen?
Be clear that I want to have children and not take seconds on that from anyone. And have a child.
For every experience you get:
59. What are the biggest things you have learned?
Humility, how to continue to walk humble recognizing my part being honest despite people BELIEVING that I am a LIAR. Letting go of resentments
60. How can you do this better the next time?
Ifa says I do not have another life to try this again.
61. If you had 1 million dollars, what would you do with it?
pay of my debit, pay rent for two years and invest the remainder in a piece of property to build a school
62. Do you love your job?
No, I love my profession however.
63.What is your ideal career?
EDUCATIONAL ADMINISTRATION
64. How can you start creating your ideal career starting today?
BY BECOMING FINANCIALLY STABLE , Having employment in that position.
65.What is your ideal diet?
to eat three meals a day everyday.
66. What do you need to do to achieve your ideal diet?
Financial Stability.
67. What is your ideal home like?
4bedrooms and an Office
68. What do you need to do to achieve your ideal home?
Better job and a family. And not listening to naysayers.
69. What is your ideal physical look?
I wouldn't mind being a little smaller, and more toned
70. What do you need to do to achieve your ideal physical look?
nothing just need to maintain
71. What is your ideal life?
I would own a car and have a family.
72. What can you do to start living your ideal life?
Save money whenever I can.
73. What would you want to say to yourself 1 year in the future?
People are just that people never stop having a spiritual conversation with these carnal spirits for the desire of the flesh WILL not get into the kingdom of God.
74. … 3 years?
Focus
75. … 5 years?
Relax a little
76. … 10 years?
Look what you did through patience
77. What do you fear most in life?
being Homeless.
78. Is there anything you are running away from?
Love and the responsibility of love.
79. Are you settling for less than what you are worth?
sometimes, I dont think i deserve that much…
80. Why?
because I just believe Im supposed to have very little and don't deserve more... but those are my tapes. like Im not looking for a hand out.
81. What is your inner dialogue like?
So far it is slowly changing and it is slowly doing something different.
82. What limiting beliefs are you holding on to?
That I do not deserve the best.
83. Are they helping you achieve your goals?
No, but I have changed my intent around those words, I am starting to understand that I matter more than anyone else because I have to live my life.
84.If not, is it time to let them go?
Yes, but thats seems hard to do when the source of all of this is my mother and the dead people want her in my life she is abusive and mean.
85. What empowering beliefs can you take on to help you achieve your goals?
idk, prayer.
86. What bad habits do you want to break?
eating sunflower seeds, not saluting every morning , UNDERSTANDING the difference between GOSSIP, and MANIPULATION
87. What good habits do you want to cultivate?
reading for pleasure
88.What are the biggest actions you can take now to create the biggest results in your life?
prayer
89. Where are you living right now – the past, future or present?
all over at once. I don't like this cycle of life
90. Are you living your life to the fullest right now?
with the money I have yes.
91. What is the meaning of life?
It is my belief the the meaning of life is to change the conditions of human life through the Ase of Orishas.
92. What is your purpose in life?
To be an Educator
93. Why do you exist?
Because Obatala saved my head
94. What is your mission?
To learn all I can
95. How can you make your life more meaningful, starting today?
Believe I have a value.
96. What drives you?
Passion! Ha! Education, children.
97. What are the times you are most inspired, most motivated, most charged up?
When I am around children.
98. What did you do during those times?
Play and Protect them.
99. How can you do more of that starting today?
Having a bigger voice.
100. How can you change someone’s life for the better today?
Standing my ground and being honest
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101. Who are the 5 people you spend the most time with?
Mama Soj, Ericka, God Mommy, and this about it. I have let a lot of people fall by the way side.
102. Are these people enabling you or holding you back?
NO
103. What qualities do you want to embody?
The quality of wholeheartedness. (Refer to Q7: Values and Q11: Ideal Self)
104. Where can you meet people who embody these qualities?
According to Eleggua in the world.
105. Who inspire you the most?
The Dali Lama and My mother
106. How can you be like them?
be more humble and never tell lies or be abusive and put my personality together because its been fractured
107. What is your ideal life partner like?
Not afraid of the world.
108. Where can you find him/her?
I will not find them they will come get me.
109. How can you get to know him/her?
Time
110. Are you afraid of letting others get close to you?
Yes.
111. … Why?
because I do not want to be made fun of or laughed at for being so shy and timid at times.
112. Who is/are the most important person(s) to you in the world?
Grand Ma (Big P) and My current God Parent.
113. Are you giving them the attention you want to give?
Not as mush as I would like they are in HIGH DEMAND
114. How can you spend more time with them starting today?
requesting time with them.
115. What kind of person do you enjoy spending time with?
A person that does not entertain me, but engages me.
116. How can you be this person to others?
I attempt to be that person for those who are around me.
117. Who do you want to be like in 1 year?
I want to be who I am supposed to be in one calendar year
118. … 3 years?
Not afraid of "birds" and actual birds
119. … 5 years?
Teaching Obi Classes (divination in the Yoruba tradition)
120. … 10 years?
Dilogun and Osain Class
121. Who are your mentors in life?
The people who treat me adversely, they mentor me on how not to be with people.
122. What is one thing you’re going to do differently after completing this exercise.
Come back to it once a year and update it.....and remember it and hope some of the answers change.
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